Friday, April 22, 2005

End of Chapter Four

Thanks so much to everyone who posted comments about my last drawing "Reinvent" and also my poem "Dear Sophia." I really appreciate all the encouragement, and your comments have been comforting to me this week.

This is an entry I really don't want to make, but I feel I should for continuity's sake. On Tuesday I had a miscarriage. I'm doing pretty well, much better actually than the other three times. My ultrasounds showed that the pregnancy never made it beyond five weeks, and all my blood tests showed my hormone levels were dropping, so rather than go to the hospital for a D&C, I choose to take medicine that would help me have a miscarriage at home. It took about a week for it to work, but now I'm just glad it's over. On a scale of one to ten with ten being the worst, I think I'm at about a three, so it seems like this was the right thing to do.

The nice thing about my Mac laptop is that I can lay on the sofa and hold it sideways to read blogs and surf the internet. But even though it's almost a wireless world, it's not really when it comes to power supplies. I'm still at the mercy of my extension cord.

I already have an idea for the new Illustration Friday topic "Daring." I think this one would make a good quilt. I also have to make my postcards for Myra's swap, so hopefully I can get back to the studio soon.

26 Comments:

Blogger Becky said...

It's good to hear you are doing well, despite your loss. My thoughts are with you. Take care.

8:01 PM  
Blogger Gerrie said...

Been thinnking about you. So sorry, but you seem to be doing ok. Take care and love yourself.

9:46 PM  
Blogger Lynne said...

I'm so sorry. Look after yourself.

12:33 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

so sorry to hear about this, rest well and take good care of yourself. look forward to seeing yr illustration too

xxxhelena tay

3:56 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Mel said...

I was so afraid this day would come. I am hugging you so much in spirit.
Love, Melody

5:18 AM  
Blogger Carol Logan Newbill said...

I am so sorry, Pam.

6:13 AM  
Blogger Deb R said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Thinking of you,
DebR

7:35 AM  
Blogger JulieZS said...

Pam, I was hoping that this day wouldn't come. I'm so sorry for your loss.

9:54 AM  
Blogger Debra said...

I'm sorry, Pam. I kept hoping that no news would be good news for you.

11:13 AM  
Blogger Diane said...

I'm sorry for your loss, Pam... Continue to take care of yourself, and hug your husband tight. My thoughts are with you...The universe knows that you and Russ are ready for a child, and one will find its way to you.

11:33 AM  
Blogger teri springer said...

My love and lots of hugs are with you both.

teri

8:37 AM  
Blogger Sharkeysday said...

I'm so sorry. Take care.

Mary-Frances

1:04 PM  
Blogger Susan said...

Life isn't fair. I know that no one said it would be, but I can't help thinking it should be, for you at least, regardless.

My biggest prayer for you? That you manage to keep on hoping...

Pamper yourself, and consider yourself thoroughly hugged from VT.

3:04 PM  
Anonymous myra said...

I'm so sorry, take care and hugs for you and you and your husband.

3:36 PM  
Blogger lizzieb said...

Hugs to you...my prayers for peace are with you.

8:57 PM  
Blogger Lisa, Procrastinator Extraordinaire said...

Sending my thoughts and prayers to you,
Lisa

1:54 AM  
Blogger Karoda said...

From my spirit to yours...wishing you all the strength and grace you need.

8:21 AM  
Blogger Dara said...

So sorry to hear your news. Virtual hugs on their way.

10:03 AM  
Blogger Jo Griffith said...

We all love your courageous spirit. My thoughts are with you.

5:50 AM  
Blogger Jenni said...

I am so sorry, Pam. We are all thinking good thought for you.

8:43 AM  
Blogger Claire said...

Sorry to hear about your loss Pam. I was hoping the news would be good.

12:44 AM  
Blogger "Maggie" said...

Pam,
My heart goes out to you in your loss.
Hugs and prayers of comfort for you and your husband,

Maggie

7:19 AM  
Blogger Rayna said...

Been there, done that, and my heart goes out to you, Pam. I send you a hug for strength and for your indomitable spirit.
Rayna

5:04 PM  
Blogger Logan said...

Pam -

I'm so sorry to hear about miscarriage number ?4?. I'm going through the same thing - had MC number ?8? over Christmas (it was a three week process this time). If you don't want to talk about it, that's fine, but if you do, I'd love to know if you have heard any wisdom on staying pregnant from your medical professionals. There's so much out there about infertility and getting pregnant, but so little information about staying pregnant. I'm on the Artful Quilters' Ring too - Even Quilters Mouth off on Occasion. Thanks.

7:49 PM  
Anonymous Jenny said...

I just found your site while browsing through blogs illustrated...and found this. last year i went through my second miscarriage when i was about 4 months along...it was so difficult, i barely made it through. i just wanted to say that i am so very sorry. it's still hard.

a few months later i decided to focus more on my art, and started a blog to sort of keep track of all my creative endeavors. i have met wonderful women through it, without ever intending that anyone would ever really read my little world...a lot of good friends has come from that.

i hope that you can find some comfort through this, and i'm glad to find a new blog to check in on...

6:12 AM  
Blogger Elle said...

Pam, I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your husband.

3:29 PM  

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